I guess because its not a fast moving cancer & I could take my time on making the decision what my next step is. I never really felt like I was that person. But reality is I am. Don't go getting upset reading this I'm still being positive & I know I AM going to beat this. Its just an odd feeling that I am labeled as a person with breast cancer & eventually will be known as a survivor.
To top off everything that is happening to me, on Monday June 27th the day before we leave to go to MD, Joe came home from work that day with out a job! Yes they are restructuring and decided to let 8 people go. Joe being one of them. Yes 2 days before his fiance has breast surgery. I was a bit pissed off at god when he told me, & A good friend Steph D. had said to me a while ago that "god doesn't give you anything you can't handle" She just wished he would start to pick on a different family. I have to agree with that. But then I was reminded of another cliche " everything happens for a reason" & this is true too, If he were still working for PHS he wouldn't be able to be home taking care of me. I can't begin to tell you how awesome he is, I don't know how I could love him anymore then I already did, but I do.
So anyone who knows of a job send it his way.
He's a horticulturist by trade, but decided he could captain a boat & fish all summer too.
Seeing the Doc's on Thursday 7-7. Will let you all know what the next step is.
xoxo
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Toni... so sorry to hear about Joe's job. I believe big in "everything happens for a reason" It drives Tom crazy when I say it,but i really believe it to be true. Good & bad things are just meant to happen. I hate that you have to go through this as well as it sucks Joe lost his job.Think about all the "crazy" shit that has happened in your life, if all that never happend,you would not have Joe in your life. You know what I mean??
Ok now I am starting to sound like I am on pain meds rambling on.....
xoxo
I believe you can give reason and meaning to this. More importantly I know in my heart YOU and JOE will give meaning to all of this you have been through. A year from now because of your collective strength, resilience, wisdom and hearts you will both be looking back knowing you climbed this da** mountain and can see nothing but the beauty office world and your lives ahead of you. You've handled this with such grace and giving of yourself to all
Of us. You are amazing as is Joe and I am in awe of you. With so much love, jess
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Not "office" lol
wow,,,certainly a few knocks in a row, but you will certainly come out of this stronger and better. Anxiously awaiting the prognosis from here, and can't wait to see you soon. Tell Joe the lake is open if he wants to fish and kayak. Hope you both can comfort one another, you are lucky to have that. Chat soon,,,xoxoxo
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